father's day

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father’s day started pretty early for us, with our son being pretty cranky from a rough night of sleep. upon keith waking up, our boy took his first steps toward his papa! what a gift! after that it was off to eat at a local cuban restaurant where we feasted on cuban bread and eggs and croquetas and quesitos. we made it back to the house in time for boo bear’s nap and spent most of the time just reflecting about what today means.

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two years ago, we were hopeful that isaac would be far enough along in his progress to have keith hold him by father’s day. we got our wish, two weeks early but it was not how we had hoped it to go. i had imagined tears of joy as i watched my husband holding our firstborn for the first time; instead it was tears of anguish as i insisted keith hold isaac while he was still living.

this is the first father’s day that we celebrate him holding his son in his arms. a son full of life and hope for us as a family. a son who lets keith know every day he walks through the door that he is loved. a son that is inches away from celebrating a year earth side. the weight of this moment has been so heavy, so rich, so good. because even though it has almost been a year with boo bear, keith has been a father for two years now.

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i love this man, so much. we have had our differences, but i still feel peace in the midst of the conflict because i know that despite the tension, we still see each other and love each other. i love how keith loves on our son even when he is on the brink of exhaustion. i wish he would care for himself a little better, but it is comforting to know that his love is so great and wide.