Pregnancy

My Pregnancy Bullet Journal

While the last seven months have been ridden with fear, guilt, discouragement and list of other things that make me the perfect candidate for depression, I knew I needed to find some simple tasks to focus on to help take my mind off the excruciating wait time.

I was basically on modified bedrest, due to the fact that I had to continually limit my activity to 30 minutes per task because of fatigue and because my body was reacting to the mild stress of standing for longer than that. That meant quitting my part-time job as a barista, and taking some vacay time away from macrame orders.

I will admit, at first I was bored out of my mind, and depression quickly set in. It was definitely a mixture of grief over losing Isaac, PPD, anxiety of this new pregnancy, and depression birthed out of isolation in being on some form of bed rest. There is really no use in pretending to be fine while buried under all of that, and I have conceded to being “overcome” as the band Live put it. I will say, it is less of me battling depression now, and  more of learning how to live with it until I can seamlessly walk out of it.

In hindsight, there are many ways in which I keep my sanity while on modified bed rest, but I will save those for future posts. Today, I wanted to share how creating my own pregnancy journal helps me at least stay afloat for the remainder of this pregnancy as I walk through my depression.

With my last pregnancy journal, I found it to be hard to document my thoughts, my day to day discoveries and tasks, as well as keeping it all organized. I wanted a birds eye view of my daily and monthly habits like water intake, vitamin intake, symptoms. What was also hard about this journal was that when Isaac was born, I suddenly had all these empty pages that no longer related to my situation and when he died, it further magnified the incompletion of my pregnancy and journey toward motherhood.

I love the customizable feature of the Bullet Journal system. Yes, I had to lay everything out myself, but when you aren’t working and are on some form of activity restriction, this method helps the time blow by fast! I got to decide what I wanted in it, how I wanted to organize it, and the best part is that I set it up once a month. Which means that God-forbid this child decides to come early, I can easily change my future layouts to fit my current situation.

There are so many tutorials on how to set up a bullet journal on youtube, but very few if any on pregnancy, so it took me a while to collect my thoughts of what I wanted in my journal. but after a few days of looking at tutorials to familiarize myself with the basic setup and making a list of what i wanted to document, i was ready to go. below i will walk through sort of the bones of everything.

table of contents

this is here so i can easily search for my collections each time i open up my journal. every time i make a new page i document it here. no other explanation needed.

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future log

my calendar year starts from the month of conception and documents the next twelve months. here i put all of my future appointments or important dates i want to remember. i will eventually migrate these to my monthly and weekly lists, but this is a great space when i don't have anywhere to place this information yet.

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collections

i am breaking my journal into three sections, one for each trimester. within those sections i house my collections: categorized lists that i want to document throughout my pregnancy. this is where my thoughts stay organized as far as things for me to do, or important landmarks in my pregnancy. i come and add items to these areas rather than lists being speckled throughout my journal.

third trimester
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monthly log

my monthly log houses several things which i have modified a few times throughout this pregnancy as i have found more efficient ways of logging. it contains my appointments and events for the month, a place for weekly medical notes, weekly log, habit trackers, and journal entries.

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bullet journal trackers

during the week, i log my activities whether pregnancy related or not, and at the end of the week i journal my thoughts about my pregnancy. i found i had a lot to say considering i am still sorting through all my grief, but i just needed one day where i process my emotions.

bullet journal weekly log

so that's the basic overview of my pregnancy bullet journal. like i said, there isn't much out there yet for pregnancy with this system in mind, so i hope it helps some crafty mama out there. If you would like to see how I set up my bujo on a monthly basis, let me know in the comment section below!


none of the items listed below were sponsored

lemome a5 dotted journal / amazon

90s themed baby shower

I cannot believe I am only a two days away from the shower! and i know that anything can happen from now until saturday, especially since i was in triage again last night for having contractions, but I am praying that I make it and have enough energy to fully enjoy myself. for now its feet up, and online shopping from here on out. anyway, today i am sharing my inspiration. I will have pictures of how how everything turned out next week!

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The conversation with my friend Jeannette went a little something like this:

Me: I think I want a nineties themed baby shower.

Jeannette: Done.

No questions. Just all in. She did proceed to send me a picture of Baby Sesame Street characters to see how nineties I wanted to go. I quickly sent her my pinterest board to resolve that issue. I am not a huge fan of baby showers in general. I could barely get through my bridal and bachelorette showers without squirming from all of the attention. Opening up presents in front of guests eagerly awaiting for you to approve of their gifts over everyone else’s. Gag me with a spoon.

Since my shower fell a week after my birthday, I wanted the shower to be a tad more sophisticated with gentle nods to the nineties. I remember making tons of mixtapes with my sister as a kid, watching endless game shows on Nickelodeon and prime time television. Slap bracelets and Tiger electronics. TLC and Lauryn Hill. Keith Haring doodles and Doc Marten boots. Cropped tops and baggy bottoms. I could go on.

Most of the posts and images I researched online were how to make a kitschy 90’s themed party, which is not what i wanted. I wanted to be far more subtle than that without losing the references. If i were in the nineties planning a party, i wouldn’t decorate a party with novelty items, because they wouldn’t be novelty back then. So i just tried to remember as much as i possibly could about the nineties (early nineties because the fashion was way cooler) and give them a salute.

decor & design

The few design elements i remember of the early nineties were actually birthed in the late eighties and carried over into the nineties. I remember Keith Haring’s more kid friendly illustrations on advertisements and tv. I found an illustration of his devoted to pregnant mothers and a floating baby. I decided to use that motif for my mixtape invitations.

cassette tape invitations
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Memphis style art was the backdrop of Saved by the Bell’s intro and a lot of the set design. Geometric patterns mixed with abstract shapes or grids. Bash Party Goods has cute options for Memphis style revival decor. I got their plates and napkins in fairly neutral colors so that they wouldn’t clash with any other decor items.

Since baby K is our rainbow baby, I wanted to make sure I had some colorful elements at the shower. I didn’t want to spend too much attention on streamers or balloons, but wanted to subtly pay tribute to this concept.

Food

Looking back on what was popular to eat back in the nineties, i am really glad my mum did not succumb to most of our requests for processed food. Still I wanted to serve some faves at the party, but almost everything that was a popular kid food was drowning in sugar.

I decided to do a grown up version of bagel bites for that something savory since I was having the shower around brunch time, and sweet pastries including my friend’s take on Christina Torsi’s cake truffles, and some mixtape shaped sugar cookies.

Also in the mix, were some mocktail recipes inspired by kid drinks popular in the nineties:
sunny d, yoohoo, and hawaiian punch. There will be a mixology station for guests to mix their drinks.

Activites

I am staying away from the more traditional baby shower games and opting for a mashup of family food meets double dare meets legends of the hidden temple since I watched these shows religiously as a kid. My dad will be the game show host (he really wanted to be apart of the shower somehow and i couldn’t say no to his adorable request plus he is not afraid to be goofy).

Finally, for the photobooth, I combed the internet looking for nineties shows promo materials, and almost all of them had the cast in front of a plain white or solid colored background. I purchased a backdrop paper roll and borrowed equipment from friends. I am not sure if I want props yet for the guests to use, but for now I will be sticking with just the backdrop.