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hospital bag haul

Some weeks ago, while at my obgyn appointment, my doctor and i were talking about how close i was getting to the end. I mentioned how i was just now starting to back my hospital bag given the fact that my ditch the stitch day was in five weeks. She replied, “yes, girl. once the cerclage comes out, anything can happen.”

Eeek.

While it seemed so far away at the time, i knew that keith and i would blow through our weekends like it was black jack. After two trips to triage that left us uncertain if we would be coming back home the same night, I needed to get myself organized. That meant finally allowing myself to sink into the reality that I needed to start packing my hospital bag. Currently, I am part of an incompetent cervix group on facebook, and i found that most women who suffered from this condition multiple times said that they have had their bags packed since week twenty.

Clearly i was more optimistic of my chances than i originally thought.

I, or rather keith got me this cute weekender bag from target’s new line, universal thread. It is big enough for labor and deliver gear as well as going home gear. I picked up a 6 piece luggage organizer off of amazon, so that if i asked keith for something he could easily find it without destroying the order of my contents.

Keeping it pretty basic, i used the largest organizer for my going home outfit and shoes, nursing bra, nigh gown, flip flops, and a pair of socks. The disposable underwear they supply at the hospital works for me, so I didn't pack any. I topped it off with a small toiletries bag and two of the laundry bag pouches, a small one for my electronic cords, and the other for my dirty clothes. That's it.

Baby K's diaper bag I got as shower gift from Skip Hop. In it I used the smallest organizer for baby clothes, swaddle, isaac's receiving blanket, and lanolin (because the lactation specialist failed to mention how vital this could be when breastfeeding; I was hurting for days while pumping for isaac). I also stuffed by iPad, camera, and a folder with copies of insurance and birth plan in them.

Thankfully, we live less than ten minutes from our hospital, so that is why i am able to keep things pretty minimal. For those of you who have experienced a full term pregnancy, is there anything i am missing? Anything i can do without?


Universal thread weekender bag / target
M-jump luggage storage bags / amazon
Universal thread sandals / target
Embroidered kimono / cato
Universal thread dress / target
Gilligan & O’Malley nightgown / target
iloveSIA nursing bras / amazon
SkipHop leather diaper bag in Caramel / target

Aesthetics: Nursery

I am determined to finish this room before the end of this month. with the possibility of baby coming in just three weeks because of my cerclage removal, I don’t really have a choice now. My sister has taken a break from driving all over the state, so i won’t see her until the end of the month. That means, it is taking me longer to lead this nursery out of its current war zone into a treaty of peace. Thankfully, our house church agreed to spend the last sunday of the month trying to tidy up our house, in case baby decides to come early.

anyway, while the nursery remains under construction, i thought i would share my inspiration for the space. I should have done this before my room layout post, but at the time I hadn't figured out what was going to work and what would not. the biggest question i still get is how can you decorate a nursery without knowing the gender?

really? in 2018? yes, i am judging you.

while black, white, and grey are the common defaults to most gender neutral rooms, i decided to play more with the idea of the type of vibe or environment i wanted. i like geometric shapes mixed with organic lines and materials. i enjoy indoor plants, natural woods, and woven materials. i like lounging on the floor (insert bean bag chairs from my youth).

black arm chair

i wish i could have found a chair like this, but my ikea poang rocking chair with a black leather cushion will give the same impression. i actually found the frame and one of their less attractive cushions in the as is section last year. with the help of my sister and some higher management, i was able to get the frame only and then my mother-in-law purchased the cushion for me. i highly suggest a chair that can be cleaned easily. who knows what kind of stains this baby will produce.

house plants

i love house plants. i just seem to kill them after six months. i tried to have a fiddle fig in the nursery, but i think because i purchased it while it was out in the elements, it eventually got moved outside because of so many little mites feeding off of its leaves. so far my succulents and pathos have managed to survive, but do not grow very tall, so i am looking for some snake plants that are pretty low maintenance.

bohemian nursery
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as far as textiles go, i have been in love with mudcloth and shibori fabric for about five or six years now, but up until recently, i couldn't find a supplier. now the cloth is everywhere and people are charging nonsense for them. i did happen to snag a mudcloth pillowcase from mackenzie bryant co. on etsy, but hope to get some floor pillows in this indigo print.

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i have been on hiatus from making macrame for almost six months because of the physical toll it would take on my body during pregnancy. however, i have been wanting to make a special piece for the nursery that presented the concept of a rainbow baby. having done something similar to this, i am excited to at least try to spend the last few weeks before this cerclage comes out trying to make something similar.

pillow fort curtains

still haven't settled on a rug yet but i will like it to stay on the lighter, less saturated side since a lot of my bigger furniture is very dark.

citzenry rug

the vibe is structured yet airy, and I get to pull in other neutrals that don't always involve the black and white. i am sure i won't be able to find or afford most of what you see here, but at least i am less restricted by one gender color. plus, there is less for me paint once the baby outgrows this room.

 

 

Shibori lounger / etsy

Rainbow macrame / magnolia

plants / dos ombre

Curtains / target

rug / the citizenry

Nursery / tuula vintage

My Pregnancy Bullet Journal

While the last seven months have been ridden with fear, guilt, discouragement and list of other things that make me the perfect candidate for depression, I knew I needed to find some simple tasks to focus on to help take my mind off the excruciating wait time.

I was basically on modified bedrest, due to the fact that I had to continually limit my activity to 30 minutes per task because of fatigue and because my body was reacting to the mild stress of standing for longer than that. That meant quitting my part-time job as a barista, and taking some vacay time away from macrame orders.

I will admit, at first I was bored out of my mind, and depression quickly set in. It was definitely a mixture of grief over losing Isaac, PPD, anxiety of this new pregnancy, and depression birthed out of isolation in being on some form of bed rest. There is really no use in pretending to be fine while buried under all of that, and I have conceded to being “overcome” as the band Live put it. I will say, it is less of me battling depression now, and  more of learning how to live with it until I can seamlessly walk out of it.

In hindsight, there are many ways in which I keep my sanity while on modified bed rest, but I will save those for future posts. Today, I wanted to share how creating my own pregnancy journal helps me at least stay afloat for the remainder of this pregnancy as I walk through my depression.

With my last pregnancy journal, I found it to be hard to document my thoughts, my day to day discoveries and tasks, as well as keeping it all organized. I wanted a birds eye view of my daily and monthly habits like water intake, vitamin intake, symptoms. What was also hard about this journal was that when Isaac was born, I suddenly had all these empty pages that no longer related to my situation and when he died, it further magnified the incompletion of my pregnancy and journey toward motherhood.

I love the customizable feature of the Bullet Journal system. Yes, I had to lay everything out myself, but when you aren’t working and are on some form of activity restriction, this method helps the time blow by fast! I got to decide what I wanted in it, how I wanted to organize it, and the best part is that I set it up once a month. Which means that God-forbid this child decides to come early, I can easily change my future layouts to fit my current situation.

There are so many tutorials on how to set up a bullet journal on youtube, but very few if any on pregnancy, so it took me a while to collect my thoughts of what I wanted in my journal. but after a few days of looking at tutorials to familiarize myself with the basic setup and making a list of what i wanted to document, i was ready to go. below i will walk through sort of the bones of everything.

table of contents

this is here so i can easily search for my collections each time i open up my journal. every time i make a new page i document it here. no other explanation needed.

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future log

my calendar year starts from the month of conception and documents the next twelve months. here i put all of my future appointments or important dates i want to remember. i will eventually migrate these to my monthly and weekly lists, but this is a great space when i don't have anywhere to place this information yet.

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collections

i am breaking my journal into three sections, one for each trimester. within those sections i house my collections: categorized lists that i want to document throughout my pregnancy. this is where my thoughts stay organized as far as things for me to do, or important landmarks in my pregnancy. i come and add items to these areas rather than lists being speckled throughout my journal.

third trimester
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monthly log

my monthly log houses several things which i have modified a few times throughout this pregnancy as i have found more efficient ways of logging. it contains my appointments and events for the month, a place for weekly medical notes, weekly log, habit trackers, and journal entries.

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bullet journal trackers

during the week, i log my activities whether pregnancy related or not, and at the end of the week i journal my thoughts about my pregnancy. i found i had a lot to say considering i am still sorting through all my grief, but i just needed one day where i process my emotions.

bullet journal weekly log

so that's the basic overview of my pregnancy bullet journal. like i said, there isn't much out there yet for pregnancy with this system in mind, so i hope it helps some crafty mama out there. If you would like to see how I set up my bujo on a monthly basis, let me know in the comment section below!


none of the items listed below were sponsored

lemome a5 dotted journal / amazon

90s themed baby shower part two

even as my friends and i laughed around a table friday night while making paper fortune tellers, it still did not hit me that i would be hitting yet another milestone i was unsure i would get to experience. saturday was an extremely busy morning. after my four o'clock bathroom session that morning, the baby was up and kicking and there was no way i was going to be able to go back to sleep at least for another hour. so i headed into the living room, and started making a to do list for the day.

by 6:30am, keith and my dad were up making themselves breakfast before they headed out to lay down more sod for the shower, and by 7:30am, my mum and sister were headed out the door to pick up a few things from the store.

everything else was a blur.

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thank god i made that to do list because it freed me up from having to delegate tasks to people as they arrived to help out. i think i maybe took three photos the whole day. thankfully, keith snapped a few photos before, during, and after guests arrived. i wish the photo booth had been more used but my sister did manage to take some great cheesy 90s catalogue photos of the stragglers.

here's what the day looked like!

scrunchies

guests were asked to choose a scrunchie based on their gender predictions: black for boy or gold for girl.

table setting
paper fortune teller
table decor
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pig in a blanket with andouille sausage. bagel bites: apple and brie, sun dried tomatoes, prosciutto, and goat cheese, cream cheese with arugula, olives, and anchovy dressing

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my dad channeling fresh prince to be our game show host.

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we sent our guests home with little debbie snacks and ligature coffee.

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the few of us that remained decided to blow off the steam and take some goofy shots together. i think we are all over-thinkers when it comes to taking really nice photos, so we just embraced our awkwardness.

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none of the items listed below were sponsored.

table runner / ikea
cups / party city
vases / dollar tree
plates and napkins / bash party goods
my jumper / ross
coffee / ligature coffee
 

90s themed baby shower

I cannot believe I am only a two days away from the shower! and i know that anything can happen from now until saturday, especially since i was in triage again last night for having contractions, but I am praying that I make it and have enough energy to fully enjoy myself. for now its feet up, and online shopping from here on out. anyway, today i am sharing my inspiration. I will have pictures of how how everything turned out next week!

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The conversation with my friend Jeannette went a little something like this:

Me: I think I want a nineties themed baby shower.

Jeannette: Done.

No questions. Just all in. She did proceed to send me a picture of Baby Sesame Street characters to see how nineties I wanted to go. I quickly sent her my pinterest board to resolve that issue. I am not a huge fan of baby showers in general. I could barely get through my bridal and bachelorette showers without squirming from all of the attention. Opening up presents in front of guests eagerly awaiting for you to approve of their gifts over everyone else’s. Gag me with a spoon.

Since my shower fell a week after my birthday, I wanted the shower to be a tad more sophisticated with gentle nods to the nineties. I remember making tons of mixtapes with my sister as a kid, watching endless game shows on Nickelodeon and prime time television. Slap bracelets and Tiger electronics. TLC and Lauryn Hill. Keith Haring doodles and Doc Marten boots. Cropped tops and baggy bottoms. I could go on.

Most of the posts and images I researched online were how to make a kitschy 90’s themed party, which is not what i wanted. I wanted to be far more subtle than that without losing the references. If i were in the nineties planning a party, i wouldn’t decorate a party with novelty items, because they wouldn’t be novelty back then. So i just tried to remember as much as i possibly could about the nineties (early nineties because the fashion was way cooler) and give them a salute.

decor & design

The few design elements i remember of the early nineties were actually birthed in the late eighties and carried over into the nineties. I remember Keith Haring’s more kid friendly illustrations on advertisements and tv. I found an illustration of his devoted to pregnant mothers and a floating baby. I decided to use that motif for my mixtape invitations.

cassette tape invitations
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Memphis style art was the backdrop of Saved by the Bell’s intro and a lot of the set design. Geometric patterns mixed with abstract shapes or grids. Bash Party Goods has cute options for Memphis style revival decor. I got their plates and napkins in fairly neutral colors so that they wouldn’t clash with any other decor items.

Since baby K is our rainbow baby, I wanted to make sure I had some colorful elements at the shower. I didn’t want to spend too much attention on streamers or balloons, but wanted to subtly pay tribute to this concept.

Food

Looking back on what was popular to eat back in the nineties, i am really glad my mum did not succumb to most of our requests for processed food. Still I wanted to serve some faves at the party, but almost everything that was a popular kid food was drowning in sugar.

I decided to do a grown up version of bagel bites for that something savory since I was having the shower around brunch time, and sweet pastries including my friend’s take on Christina Torsi’s cake truffles, and some mixtape shaped sugar cookies.

Also in the mix, were some mocktail recipes inspired by kid drinks popular in the nineties:
sunny d, yoohoo, and hawaiian punch. There will be a mixology station for guests to mix their drinks.

Activites

I am staying away from the more traditional baby shower games and opting for a mashup of family food meets double dare meets legends of the hidden temple since I watched these shows religiously as a kid. My dad will be the game show host (he really wanted to be apart of the shower somehow and i couldn’t say no to his adorable request plus he is not afraid to be goofy).

Finally, for the photobooth, I combed the internet looking for nineties shows promo materials, and almost all of them had the cast in front of a plain white or solid colored background. I purchased a backdrop paper roll and borrowed equipment from friends. I am not sure if I want props yet for the guests to use, but for now I will be sticking with just the backdrop.