Motherhood

resolution

my biggest qualm this year has been that i have far too much that i want to do, and when i try to do everything, i neglect a part of everything (even now as I am typing this up, i am checking to make sure I have made an instagram post which then leads to me looking at old photos and comparing how big the babe has gotten as i look at him laying on the floor attempting to crawl—uuuuugh so distracted).

but this year instead of committing to do more better, i have decided to dial it back to my bones, staying focused on one major task at a time until its completed. i would love to be able to do more at once, but being a jack of all trades tends to make me mediocre at a lot of things.

one of the things I have been pouring a lot of energy into lately is a book that I have been working on for the last year. not have i been writing content for it, but i have been designing it as well. i am now at the stage of getting quotes and hoping to get it printed soon. i will share more next month when i hopefully have more details to share, but i will say that I am mega proud of myself for staying the course and pushing through all the baby interruptions.

my blog has taken a back seat as of late due to mamahood, but also to technical difficulties that were supposed to make posting a little more convenient. content has been a little all over the place as i find my rhythm of what i would like to focus on. the truth is, there isn’t a whole lot going on most days because there is still so little i can do before babe needs to go down for a nap, or eat. as soon as we start making headway with vendors on this book, i will resume consistent posts, but until then they will be a bit scattered.

macrame is another area i have put on the back burner. i have so many ideas that i want to create, but it takes a lot of prep time, so until i get the head space for it, i am tabling it until the summer.

finally, i think the biggest reason i am so distracted is because i don’t really have a space to keep things organized and in its proper place. keith and i are looking to change that this year and i am really excited about it because its been a really long time since i have had a space for all of my office stuff and for me too.

thankful

thanksgiving often gets glazed over by Christmas decor and music, black Fridays and cyber Mondays, the focus on what we don't have yet rather than what we are currently blessed with.

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occasionally I will read a few photo editing articles in vsco's journal for an inspiring perspective on the world through a lens. today i read a piece about three food photographers from serbia, france, and taiwan sharing their experiences of this american ritual we call thanksgiving.

It was interesting to read how they all seemed to revel in the idea of breaking bread together to celebrate the goodness of the year. One photographer described it as a ceremony that began with the passage of a year and a welcoming of a new one to come.

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as I sit here in the airport on the eve of thanksgiving, disgruntled at the fact that our flight has been delayed by two hours, I look at my son who is mesmerized by the sights and sounds and I realize that this isn't a dream and he is here with us and already headed on a grand adventure. 

this past year was frought with sadness and uncertainty, but I feel blessed to be welcoming a new year filled with family I can call my own. 

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